‘I am on a mission to help others deepen their relationship to their body so they can alchemize the pain they’ve been carrying and finally feel physically, mentally, and emotionally light and liberated.’
A BIT ABOUT ME AND MY EXPERIENCE WITH BREATHWORK
I THINK THESE WORDS WILL REALLY RESONATE WITH YOU..
For as long as I can remember, I’ve struggled with allowing myself to feel, express and even acknowledge my emotions. I have this vivid memory from my childhood, I must’ve been around 10 years old or so, of my dad sharing some very upsetting news with me that any child would naturally be upset over and my internal dialogue being ‘don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry’. And it took absolutely everything I had within me to hold those tears back.. but I did it and continued to do so until I found breathwork at the age of 24.
The years between I developed chronic back pain. My parents took me to multiple specialists to try and help relieve me of my discomfort but nothing seemed to work. Over time the physical symptoms eventually weren’t the only thing I was struggling with. I developed severe anxiety and ended up living my life transitioning between anxious thoughts and completely numbed out states. Although I was surrounded by people who loved me, this was a very lonely place to live.
At age 22 I began getting really into personal development and learning about holistic wellness. I was reading all the books, listening to all the podcasts and taking the courses. This began to give me some hope with my mental state, I was feeling optimistic about where I was headed. Until all these self-help tools were no longer helping and were having me feel less about myself than I did when I first found them. I felt like I was learning all the things but to actually implement them and stick with them was impossible! ‘How can I have aaaalll this information on how to feel better and still not be making any progress?!’. This led me to a place of feeling like I was broken.
Breathwork entered my world in the most divine and perfect time at the beginning of 2020. I was just getting home from travelling and living out of a van for 1 month in New Zealand which was the most freeing and liberating experience of my life to this point. My flight home just so happened to be on the last day that they were allowing international flights to land in Canada due to the beginning of the pandemic. Needless to say, I went from feeling the most free I’ve felt in my entire life to feeling like a prisoner. Anxiety levels continued to peak, there was a very real possibility of losing my job, turmoil within friendships and family structures began and I was feeling defeated.
THIS WAS THE MOST POWERFUL EXPERINECE OF MY LIFE
I had posted a picture on Instagram and used #breathwork on it (having never experienced it before but heard of it as a holistic healing modality) and a beautiful soul contacted me. She was a breathwork facilitator who I ended up working with and is now one of my dear friends (I still think this is so cool lol). During my first session with her, all these pieces of my life seemed to come together and make sense! I didn’t really know what to expect from the session at first but during it I felt this dense, heavy energy slowly make its way from my stomach, into my chest, then my throat and eventually released through a waterfall of tears. This was deeeep pain and grief I was releasing from years of suppressing how I truly felt. After the release was complete, I was washed over with so much love and compassion for myself, I had never felt anything like it! I was in complete awe of my experience and knew this was going to play a huge role in my life- whatever that was going to look like.
This session allowed me to embody the teachings I had mentally understood about the mind-body connection. I truly understood the impact of suppressing my emotions was having on my physical body as well as my mental and spiritual body.
This was l i f e c h a n g i n g
MY CERTIFICATION
2 years after experiencing my first breathwork session, I felt called to become certified in this powerful healing modality. I became a Certified Pause Breathwork Facilitator.
This was a 6 month, trauma informed training and required a minimum of 60 practice hours to be completed. Bring trauma informed is important as it incorporates ‘titration’ into sessions, which is just a fancy word for moving slowly and taking things as they come. It can be re-traumatizing for someone to push past their level of safety in a session and can do more harm than good if this is attempted. In our sessions together, I will always encourage you to follow the wisdom of your body before following my cueing.
Pause has now certified thousands of trauma informed facilitators in 27 countries around the world.
I am now on a mission to help others deepen their relationship to their body so they can alchemize the pain they carry day to day and finally come into a place of feeling physically, mentally, and emotionally light and liberated.
I’d love for you to join me if you feel called.
Invitation to book a Discovery Call to see if this would be a good fit for you.